The aftermath of masculinity

What’s left after black men are enslaved brainwashed and reprogrammed?

A void.

A hollow void like a computer with no code. See, like with a functionless computer, the man cannot function in this world without masculinity. At least not outside himself.

Brave manly face for society. Like a grand performance in front of thousands. But these performances evoke emotion.

But our men lack that. We’ve let our careers slip through our fingers. We’ve even let our women, all women, measure us on this unfair masculinity scale. Ultimately become some penniless, emotionless robot who only has feelings or saves funds when prompt to have them.

I’m taking a piece of power back. There should be no relationship, platonic or not, where men are always at the mercy of debt or their emotions.

My grandfather passed.

Can I mourn him? Or do I busy myself with funeral planning and cost to suppress the pain of loss?

My daughter was born on this exact day at this exact time.

Can I be overjoyed? Can I have separation anxiety anytime she leaves my arms?

Or do I ignore my unborn daughter’s mom for months then when the baby is born, I stay gone for years so my child can my makeup who I am instead of her knowing who I am?

Logically, it seems like men who don’t feel can’t feel the good emotions either. Can’t use what’s not there sort of speak. I guess the good part about the way society depicts masculinity is the bad stuff can be brushed under the rug.

You don’t have permission to cry because you are a man. Or men don’t feel weakness. Oh and my favorite little boy doesn’t cry

Who comes up with this stuff anyways?

Not healthy. Doable though. But doable is what got our brothers flooding prisons.  Being the ass end of political brutality. Wanting to keep paperless trials because no asset could ever be in his name because of numerous debts.

This masculinity scale lacks emotional health.

 

2 thoughts on “The aftermath of masculinity

  1. Agreed. It appears that we are learning to break this cycle slowly, but surely. The millenials are really good for challenging the status quo in areas where needed

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